sometimes, you act like you and sometimes, no. it is normal for all of us. it's called 'human facts.'
never knew who you are?
never feel like yourself?
or...
are you confusing of being you? the true you?
it is so hard when people feel this way, that they even take a full risk by completely changing their true self.
you are what you are.
you are what you want to be.
love you like you love yourself.
how can you do this? how to love yourself?
>>my experience<<
i was a quiet and shy person. i was always being alone and is the easiest to be bullied. you can see me sitting alone there, at a place where people would not see me. sometimes, i feel like i want to be gone from the world. sometimes, i hope that i can be seen by others too. because, every time i was always being left out and be a lonely girl. it was the hardest time for me that i even think to leave this world too. i remembered that i was bullied by this bad little girl, who always pick on me all the time. i was fat at that time and this little fat girl will always being bullied by others. that bad little girl will always pinch my chubby cheeks and that one time was the hilarious thing that she did. in which she spit at me and put that green-runny-liquid from her nose to me. it was a yuck!!! i even cried at the school especially when there is extra-class (tuition) on the evening. i will wait at the outside, near the gates school and this some evil child will mimicking me and called me, "FAT GIRL."
it was so depressed at that time. i do not what did i do wrong to them. are they that perfect? are they that mighty that they want to pick on me? come and fight me, one-on-one, face-to-face.
but, it didn't worked that way. i ended up being bullied again and all that left me is, depression and stress.
anyway, i feel relieved. there were some friends that still care for me. they didn't spent that much time with me but, it's enough that i can have them by my side. this one friend of mine even chased away the other child that bullied me at that time. i grew up, with her. until, one time we have to be separated from each other because she is married, without telling me. it is hard to lose your friend in that little time.
but, i think i grew up mature now. i try to balance myself. accept all the annoying words from the bully. and retrieve myself from being that depressed people again. did i do a good job? should i do this? can i handle this later?
i give a chance for myself, love myself and gathering the confidence that i have. i pick up my courage and face them. they don't even know what are they doing, right? blessed them, for making you to be who you are now. believe in yourself.
and yes, there are bad and good side inside ours. it's the "Yin" and "Yang" of our life. we need to balance it.
gather some courage, gather the confidence in you, gather your faith.
it is your time to shine!! it is your moment now!!
but, do not be a bully!! Remember that!!!
love exist among you. love others like you love yourself too. love can cure everything in this world and even the haters. love them.
love is your strongest weapon ever. do not misused love. love with your moderate heart, kind-hearted.
and, most important,
LOVE YOURSELF!!!
